Extract of Cavan footballer’s book details how he dealt with depression.

My counsellor took a deep breath and looked at me. “Look,” he said, “I have hinted at this before, but I have never felt you were ready to take it on board before now. When did we first see each other?”

“Back at the start of 2012,” I confirmed.

“Well, at the start, the work we did was enough to get you back living your life and back out into the world but I think we both knew there was always another level that you needed to dig down into and work through. I think that time has arrived.”

“What do you mean?” I wondered. It all sounded a bit airy-fairy.

“Okay, try this. Describe yourself to me. Who are you?”

“I’m Alan O’Mara.”

“That’s your name, but who are you? What makes you, well, you?” said the man who had helped me work through so much.

“I suppose people will always say, ‘There’s the Cavan keeper. He’s happy and outgoing’.”

I wasn’t sure if that was the right answer.

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